new one

2009-10-11T15:35:00.003+08:00

I'm chi0ng-ING my inn-vati0n pr0ject n0w.
GAWSH.
I'm dead tired d0ing this freaking pr0ject ppt.
!!
Tell you something,
Real frens will hurt you the most ,
so best is to not have best frens.
They suck.

Can have close frens but NO best frens.
I've learnt my lesson.
I should THANK her for teaching me such WONDERFUL lesson in her rl.
I have close friends now like grace and vienna and they're really my close of the close ,
and they are there when I'm in need.
Grace my forever jie. I'll love her forever as my jie.(she's the real one)
Vienna my bff(: I'll lvoe her forever as my friend.
Both are the best in schoool(maybe in the class)
Vanessa Kang that clique also treat me very well,
also love them(:
But not to some ppl in our class!
I will NOT show love to people who cheated me and dumped me like a RUBBISH.
I'm like her post -it-note.
When I'm needed, she will write on me.
After writing, she will just crush my and DUMP ME OUT OF HER PLACE.
Weel done!! *clap hands * for her.
Best of the best!
longest fren=hurt you the most.
And thaa the person will suck alot!
It shows that the person haven mature and have not grown,
so she should not have rights to say ppl selfish and childish,
when SHE HAVEN GROWN UP!

So what if she has great l00ks?
what? to electric shock all the guys in ST gabS?
To jonathon?
NO WAY.
I'll not interfere your matters,
neither will I care.
Cause the more I care for you,
the more hurt I'll get,
and the more I"LL be used by you.
TELLING YOU
I'm not a post-it-note.

It may be a good thing that I knew you as a friend,
it may also be good that you dumped me..
well, my money also DUMPed to you le.
very happy right.
get everything you wan!
My mum just accepted you as my clsoe fren,
and now you just dumped me.
So If i tell her, what will she say?
obvious enough.
Weel, enough of this rubbish.
I'm gonna let go everything,
forget everything,
EXCEPT the things I bought.
I'm not asking for anything or whatsoever,
just letting go and venting out my anger on ym blog,
and i'll forget it le.
Just know that I have OTHER ppl close to me which is enough.
you may kindly take that jerk away too.
I'll be more than grateful to you.
Thanks for being my friend,
and teaching me rl stuffs.
No matter good or bad,
but you're still the best fren ever who enttered my life.

if you happen to read this,
is not insulting you,
or whatever,
is just venting my anger out,
to general.I'm not pointing to anyone.
So you shouldnt feel offended.
You are free!
so go stick with jel, nadia, AMABEL,
whatever you wan!
*gu gong* to you.
Pray that god will make you mature faster,
and see how nice your frens are.
not me.,
but it you are in trouble or anything,
still can find me,
cause I very kind, will help you or any of my enemy though.
Once again, this post is not insulting you, so dont feel offended,
you can just take it as a joke as you have your own reasoning.
And this post is just posting FOR FUN.

live life to the fullest with vienna!(:(:

2009-10-10T09:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday

Went changi Airport to do project till 4.
Rush home to put down laptop,
then rush out to go for piano lesson @730pm.
Then rush home to watch channel 8 9pm show,
@ the same time eat dinner.
Then sleep-.-

today
I wonder hows vanessa sunrise today.
Hope she's enjoying herself.
I always wanted her to be happy,
and live life to the fullest.
Now's raining heavily.
Like typhoon.
How I wish I can die inside this 'typhoon' thingy.
Sigh.
It's very bitter now.
maybe going amk hub later.
Jonathon, you happy uh-.-
jk.

2009-10-09T09:06:00.002+08:00

I've lost my best friend thismorning.
She said we cant be best fren ,
cause I'm not the one she's finding.
oh well.
Live with it.
Anyway, is just the name that says" no best fren"
but the frenship is still there.
We can stilll do things together
SO why nid the name at all?
I rather do things with her more fun,
than having the name.
But i'll still be a friend that willl help her(:
cuase she changed my life,
and I am grateful for her being my best fren once.
She my very very good fren now, then vienna,
both VC(:

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!

2009-10-08T15:20:00.002+08:00

I'm back for school.
paranoid.
Thought that someone who talk to me,
and not scold me,
but I was too naive and took the 'scolding' to heart.
I was shattered,
like the glass that was broken.I WAS SERIOUSLY, SHAKKENED.
I was scolded yesterday for nothing.
I cried.yes, cried.

My mom called me useless and I have no brain.
Said vulgarities,
And made me have low self-esteem.
I really hate this.
Not a single one comforted me,
but only know how to scold.
yes good points! bad points!
I'm having alot of bad points
and been scolded for all of it.
I'm down, really down.
too bad, noone's here to comfort me.
I'm only living in thsi world with scoldings.
Why should I deserve this.
And, I'm still having the philophobia

somewhere over thee rainbow,
lives a lady,
suffering from,
philophobia.
and dont wish to be alone,
though.
her life's miserable.
She felt like not living
and all her worries,
will then be gone,
easily,
quickly.
Who can help her?
SHe's really cluless,
and needs someone to be,
beside her now.

2009-10-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

having philophobia right not.
It ill surely last

2009-10-06T19:46:00.001+08:00

I hate you,
I didnt blog about.
your own playing urself luh.
Okay lar, fine.
byebye
051009, 7.47pm

2009-10-06T18:10:00.004+08:00

I'm havin philemaphobia & Philophobia.

philemaphobia= fear of kissing.
philophobia= fear of falling in love or being in love.

rand0m.

Okay! baack to my timeline today!(:
woke up @ early 7, wash up and off to..
SENTOSA!

Met vienna,
then bob, charmel, jolyenn , andrea, hong yu and eunice lim!(:
went to food republic to eat then off we go!
we went to all three beaches!! (:
played sand!(:
HAHA.
we took the sky ride and the luge.
It was FUN.
My gawsh ,I wan to go again,
but its 11 bucks!:(
Better not go with my guyfriend,
cause he wll suffer.
I'l squeeze the person hand damn hard,
until like i abuse him
HAHA!
Then after that change out,
go viv0 for lunch!(:
passed Hui en her early bday present, stitch.
And I receive a piglet,
not from her, someone else.
It l00 so cute.
It looked like hui en
seriously.
He didnt look aat me when he passed to me.
I also never look @ him.
I didnt dare.
I didnt want hui en to have any bad feeling.
so I didnt see him.
We like became..strangers..suddenly.
I didnt see his,
1.braces.
2.hair.
3. external looks.
Cause I was looking either at hui en or the floor..
WHen did I became afraid of him.
WHy.

Then we went to long john sliver then Bob fed andrea one of my chicken.
HAHA, pig.lol
THen met up with vanessa,collect spree.
THen went bishan to eat mango ICE!!
I then know something..
~~she didnt go for the beach thing cause she feel extra.~~
why, maybe cause i closer to vienna?
maybe i really interfered her life too much.
I didnt give her freedom.
SHe wanted to go out with amabel,
but later never casue amabel dont wan go le.
cause i was also goin.
I feel like i'm the extra one,
interfering her life.
then many ppl never go for meatball show,
so cancelled.
All seem to be picking one me.
like if i go, alot of ppl wont go.
Why?

I'm staring at the piglet now,
and saluting to it now(:
I really love it alot,
what should I call it?
hui en?

2009-10-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

GUess where I went today/
Bugis! Simei! Parkway!

1.Simei,
I went to fix my fone.
stupid red w910i fone ahnd, aut0restart!
DUMBDUMB fone.Then my another fone msg too much until button spoil=.=
But need to wait till my the other fone fix alreadyy then can xchange it and send the another fone for repair/

2.Bugis
Went with my dad and his mom to pai sen.
I go calafare only.
Cause wan2 go out mahhs(:
Then today I drink ice milo/! (:
And is the fastest thing I've ever driink in my entire life mans

3.Parkway
Go there calafare.
Add ppl to the place
LLOL.
I go there to kill time.Nothing to do mahhs.

thats all and now i'm back home.
woHOO!
blogging cause my mom on com,
so shun bian blog awhile.
HAHA

okay, back to my life.
Maybe being single is happy enough for me.
Maybe this's god's plan for me.
Maybe He' didnt want me to like the person that I liked.
But, sometimes,
he stills blink* blink* in my mind rand0mly.
seriously rand0mly mans.LOL.
haha..well
It's alright to bling bling a little all of a sudden right..HAHA.

Im cutting my hair tomorrow AGAIN!
haha(:
maybe cutting bangz.
LOL, but I am surealy oging to saloon,
cause I let them help me wash my hair.
It's at Bugis(:
So after school,
cannot go home,
Need to straightaway go for the ting le! so rush.
I tomorrow still got D and T presentation.
I haven even done my presentation board.
Sad man:(
GO to go do NOW.
Lol.Dont even know what to add in -.-
Buaii(:
AHA.

With you around,

I feel secured.

Without you,

I feel the sense of

unsecure ,

and emptiness.

Wht is this so,

happening to me?

2009-10-03T11:46:00.001+08:00

I'm going out now.

Fareast plaza and Queenstown

2009-10-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

Back from some stupid piano lesson.
Today screwed up my science paper.
And, nobody came to comfort me
well done manz. ppl are marvelous
.
luckily still got clarice.

Satyed back for D and T.
Oh ya, tomorrow need go popular buy materials for preperation of D and T presentation board thing.
Sian. only onedoing. sdono sian ling doin anot..-.-

I dono how to tell my mum science.screwed.

My mum bought durain snowskin mooncake for me to eat tonight.
I cant bear to spoil te atmsophere.
Finally studying subjects exam are gone,
left listening for chinese and Art.
I really hope god will make me pass all,
so that I can go sec 3 express nxt year,
cause I dont wanna retain or Drop.
Is bad for me,.
If so, I rather die lar pls.

I cnt live
If living is without you
I cant live,
I cant live anymore

2009-10-01T14:02:00.003+08:00

I'm dead for history.
I'm okay for SEQ, but not for SBQ.
I'm out of any humanities already.
Where do I belong?

yesterday studied till around 0200am,,
then msg ppl, then sleep,
before sleeping,
I received a call from my friend,
saying that my friend's locked out of house by the mom.
Wl, what kind of mom is that,
I mean I'm not insulting the mom,
but I just hope my mom not liddat.

Well, its already like so late and that friend has no place to sleep,
As is getting later and later.
Me , a friend of that friend,
surely will get worried mah.
friend not worry = I no feeling le lor.
So later.where can that friend go?

I'm worried, as a friend,
Mind you!
Then that friend also wan!
Never even reply my msg,
make me have worriness when taking my exam.
Then now I online, see that friend, ONLINE
wl. make me worry for nothing.
kill my brain cells.
ps. Vanessa see you today and vice versa= you saw her too.

hmm. today hongyu told me a love joke.
I'll share it with all of dhe YOUS! (:

A guy owe money to a gal.
The guy the fren told him that,
Gals who like guys, will/..
1.Blush when sees him,
2.Will always msg him
3. will shout his name when see him.

So one day,
The gal shouted his name,
face red and always msg him.

The guy was, Bingo! I think she really like me,
but actually, it's supposed to be ...

Gal shout his name cause,
1.Owe her money never return!!
2.face red cause scold and shout at him for money back until can vomit blood,
3.Always msg him, to ask him return her money.

Funny?

2009-09-30T12:44:00.003+08:00

i'm starting to admire more of Jonathon,

Though I only met him twice.

I have depresesed my best friend,
and I'm trying to mend it now.
I hope it will turn better.

I'm also losing a friend.
Due to some problems and constraints,
I have to leave that friend.

Bye, Duane

Felt with much hatred

2009-09-30T11:50:00.002+08:00

I'm eating roti prata now,
blogging @ the same time.
MultiTASK! (:
okay, back to things.

Few days back.. me and a fren called A were talking quite happily.
But then , yesterday, "A" became very quiet and kept a distance and like ignoring me.
Msging ignorance=.=
Even ask me,
Why you suddenly sms me.
WTH, sms randomly cannot is it.
WL.okay,I'm not supposed to be angry,
cause maybe that person "A" has no choice.
I really dono.
"A" isnt talking to me.
Why should I actually care.
seriously.
Did'nt even treat me as a friend.
Only got 2 cloeset. fullstop.

Fine, you are drawing the line quite thick. so okay,
I'm following what you're doing,
and respect you.
until you talk to me,
I'll try not to take initiative.

random!! Talking to jonathon is fun and nice(:

Today math paper,
super hard lar please.
gawsh!
I left 4 blanks,
but mostly with working..
how to do this question uh?

without using a calculaator,
solve,

18 x 164
------------------------
164(square)-161 x 167

This question killed me.
Stupid.
I cant only find the answer with the calculator.
LOL?
try doing and tell me the ans.

Eating then mugging for history alreadies(:

I can't stay strong alone.I need you to be here with me.
I love you.

2009-09-28T16:31:00.002+08:00

Oh, he just finish his oral,
heard from him, it sucked.
Never study comfirm suck.

He mass messaged people that it sucked.
oh well.
None of my business.
Heard from him on the phone.
Hui en's back from malaysia.
So, ask me, now,
wats my feeling.
I am not sure, really not sure.

I dono why.. My happiness rate drop drastically.
well,maybe because of hearing that she's back,
and tat I cant talk to him anymore,
or there willl be further misunderstandings and problems ,
which I dont wan it to happen.
The best is that,
I.Leave.Him.Alone.With.Her
which them all the best,
less talking etc, I will try to control.
I will try, even if I wan2 msg,
I'll cut off my fingers.
If I want to call you,
I'll sew my mouth..

Another one,
Let's look at a source below.

"But I don't.And I told my dad and mum about today's exam My dad's not happy, i doubt my mum would be too. I'm lessening the burdenn on their shoulders by studying harder for ohter papers,alright? You should do the same. Stop smsing."

Extracted from pink sont Ericsson W595.
Date/Time : 280909 4.29pm

Looking at this souce.
what can you infer?

Moral of the story :stop smsing her.

some people once told me that if I have problems can turn to that person.But for some reason , I cant talk to that person and that person is the 2best fren.now what? Both gone. I'm supposed to live alone?
Dont tell me with jon. kidding.
Both stayed at serangoon.
If jia hao wasn't in NS now,
I rather him come out ad talk.
(just thinking, but will never come true)

2009-09-28T15:47:00.000+08:00

2009-09-28T12:36:00.003+08:00

I'm dead,
So dead.

I screwed up my whole geog exam today.
I studied in dept the whole book,
and nothing came out.
I studied for nothing,
seriously.
Cant blame it too,
last night wanted to sleep @ 0100am.
But I just couldnt sleep.

I was having worries.
I can finally sleep @0200am.
Bt then 0300am, I just wake up all of a sudden,
feeling lonely,
and feeling empty.
Like something's uspposed to be with me,
but it's not with me.
I suddenyl thought of him.
practically HIM
How can this be?
Yes, I admit.
I want to be loved,
but I cant feel any.
Having a crush is not love.
~~crush= love~~

I dreamt of vanessa's family.
Ididnt know why.
It;s just weird.
i like offended her parents..
they ignored me.
her sis, looked like someone,
then I didnt dare to look at her,
pratically only her leg..
I'm not sure wat's going on with me.

Maybe I'm too stress and that this hallucination comes in.
Back to present time now.
Just, she msg me that she is gonna be very busy with studying from now , this min onwards.
Yes, I know. She'a trying to go to an A class.
I should let her just study.
Yes, dont distract her.
Leave.Her.Alone.

Duane ah uncle duane!

wake up and go for your 0levls oral!

dont sleep! you sleep then mati!

Fastter wake up!

Dont sleep!!

Even If I jump down this moment,
I dont anyone to mourn ,
for my disappearance,
as I mean nothing to you.
When you mourn,
I feel pitied.
And that's not I ,
Always wanted.
I just want a peaceful life,
with my lovedd one,
which I am not sure who take will be,
and my only fren,
V.